Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Frustrations!!!

I am frustrated. Bet you couldn't tell by the title of the post or anything, huh? UGH. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. I don't like to be negative, especially when I am posting for the world, or my family, to see....but hey, a girl can't be perfect all the time. In ten weeks I will be a Licensed Massage Therapist (assuming I pass my national certification exam on September 21st, that is). I am very looking forward to starting this business. The problem is, and I have said it before, you have to have MONEY to make money. I have saved every single tip I have received from massage clients. Every penny. But it only covers 1/2 the cost of my seated on-site chair I want. That's pretty good, really. But it's not good enough. Because I don't want to have to wait to have that chair. It will be helpful in getting clientele. I was doing really, really good at being patient. But then today...I received an email about a volunteer opportunity for massage therapists right here in American Fork. At a brand new chiropractor's office. Tomorrow, they are having some sort of grand opening or something...and they are looking for massage therapists to give seated massage. This doctor is new to Utah and therefore has not made any connections with massage therapists here SOOOO...he is looking for a good therapist to refer his clients to. OH MY GOSH! Talk about an amazing opportunity. This guy will HAND me his clients!! And I have NO CHAIR. I want to cry. I want to participate. I want this doctor to see me work. For him to see how much I love helping people and love the work I do. But no....I have no chair. I am depressed about this. And I am frustrated...because I have no money...to help me make money. I am in no way saying we are struggling. We aren't, Travis makes enough to make our house payments, pay all the bills, take care of the basic needs of our family (AND I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THAT). But there isn't exactly a lot of money left over after those responsibilities are fulfilled. I guess I just hope that eventually I will have that chair and build clientele on my own one of these days. But can you understand how I would be frustrated???

2 comments:

ajodasso said...

Honey, I've been frustrated for the same reason since February, when I lost my part-time job. James makes enough money to pay my third of the rent plus his third, but my not having a part-time job has meant that I've had to sell a lot of things just to keep my own checking account afloat. I've made probably five or six hundred pounds over the past 6-7 months in selling things, but I've once again sunk back down to only about a hundred pounds to my name. It's rough times everywhere, and this is me putting out 2-3 job applications per month. At least I got a teaching gig for October through December. I'll make about 1500 pounds in that time, and hopefully it'll give me fuel for the months after that when, in all likelihood, I will still have trouble finding part-time work because the market is probably still going to be difficult.

Miss Candy Anderson said...

Jenna,

You will get one. It will all work out.

I'm sorry your so frustrated. I know what you mean. I've had times like that with school.

Not to mention the tips we get at school are next to nothing if we get anything at all. I wish they would change that policy. Hair students get tips!!!!